January 10, 2008

• Ok, so we've been together now for 5 of the last 10 days...and it feels like it's all moving too fast.  It's incredible, but just really fast.  I know that speed does not mean it's bad...it just warrants caution. 

  They always tell us that age is not a disease, but in the grand scheme of things, it is a factor and again, warrants caution.  This feels like the same thing.

  ...I think I'm just trying to protect myself.  I have to leave in less than two weeks...I can't do another LDR...I am tired of longing for a future point.  I want to enjoy things now...not gamble on a distant ideal that's not firmly rooted.  Hell, I guess it's always a gamble...4 years is some pretty deep roots and look how that turned out.

  I dunno.  I am supposed to take it one baby step at a time...but it's so hard.  It's not in my nature to just sit around and wait for stuff to happen - but I have to try. 

  I am going to enjoy the next week to the best of my ability.

  • 9:22 pm
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