January 17, 2008

• Mark left this morning and though it was a tearful good-bye, it's also a good time to reflect on the past 17 days.  Although this really sucks, I am glad for the pain of loss - it means that my life has changed.  It means that I had something that was great...and no matter what, I'm grateful to have experienced it at all.  Tis' life I guess.

  Now comes the hard part of getting back in touch with reality.  I've been on an emotional 'Cloud 9' to the detriment of every other aspect of my life.  I'm dreadfully behind on work and have all but dismissed my time in the clinic.  I haven't really talked to or seen my sister in the past few weeks and I miss my pups.  I don't want to face the real world...I wish I could just remain in this paradise bubble...but that would be too easy.  I think the trick is to weave that piece of paradise into the core my tangled life...so no matter how twisted things get, I can always retreat.  It will be interesting to see how things will play out over the next few months.

  I need to work, but I'm not quite ready...nap first...work later.

  I'm so gonna get fired.

  • 11:44 am
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