April 18, 2008

• I can't sleep.  It's no surprise that I find myself here after an evening filled with nothing.  I should have made an attempt to sleep after Mark logged off...but well...I got curious about stuff and spent way too much time surfing the net to satisfy my curiosity, but never addressed my very real need for sleep. 

  It's quite a cycle.  If I can't sleep, I think (or vice versa), and thinking never leads to an end point...it only spurs the mind and imagination to travel further.  And I've never been one to ignore the call...which results in this restlessness.

  It's this inner restlessness and constant pursuit of "something" that makes my head spin and the rest of my body long for an anchor.  I want to stop...but I'm terrible at doing so.  On the contrary, all I seem to do is goad myself into doing more.  This week was operated on a higher energy plane; I got a lot done, but I think it's more of an over compensation for everything that I haven't been doing.  I'm hoping to settle in somewhere in between.  I'm hoping I can.  I am tired of oscillating between two extremes. 

  I am just tired.

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