Less than one week to go!!

I'm really loving the place, I can't wait for Mark to get here. =)

I spent the afternoon writing down most of the important dates for the next few months...sadly, there's so much going on that I'm not sure how much fun I'll be...I'm hoping that Mark doesn't mind that I'm no fun.

Aside from that, same ol' same old. Just a a little while longer and everything will change. Awesome.

Not totally moved in yet, but getting there. Just a few more hours worth of moving and we'll be there!!

The countdown is at 2 weeks. Less than!

Shitty thing is that I'm taking my surgery prac test the day before he gets here. Bum.

This weekend, just gonna unpack and move in...gotta remember to actually take my cattle quiz too.

Tired. Wanna go to bed.

Move-in day tomorrow! =) Most of the appliances have been bought. Now all I need is to move it in!

Feeling alright, just sick is all...just a little over 2 weeks and Mark will be here!

Washing machine down, just a microwave and fridge to go. So far, so good though, I'm staying well below what was set out for the budget. I think it was 700; 400 for washer and fridge, 100 for kitchen stuff, 200 for tv and something to set it on. So far, I've spent 115 for TV and stand, 100 for kitchen stuff, and 50 for the washing machine. I still have $435 allowance, but hope to get the fridge for 150 or thereabouts. The less the better, of course. I'd settle for anything really, but the limitation is the teeny space that's pre-allotted for the fridge. Poos.

I should really call the landlady tomorrow to ask. And I have to get the laundry machine by Wednesday...I hope...I hope that I'll have the keys by then. I hope I can move some of the big things and that there's also a fridge to buy and pick up by then. I hope it all pans out...I know that I'm getting myself all worked up over stuff, but my mind won't settle until it's done. I guess the worse case scenario is that I move the washing machine to Elly's for a few days and will have to rent a trailer twice...meaning 40 bucks...plus 10 bucks gas each time, so 60 all up. Which...if I don't have to deal with moving the damn washing machine, 30 bucks to have it delivered anyway doesn't seem like such a bad bargain. Hm. Best case scenario, I rent the trailer and get everything moved all at once....which in all likelihood just isn't going to happen. Maybe I should just get the machine delivered. Sigh. Dunno. Whatever.

Went to Elly's baby shower tonight...and damn, I've heard enough about breast pumps and nipple creams to last a lifetime. Aside from that, I felt a little out of place being the only non-Mormon there, but they're all really nice so it wasn't bad. There were a few games, a bit of food, and a number of gifts...it was nice.

Most of today went without a hitch. I'm ready for bed though. I do think I'm getting sick

Tomorrow, I am gonna start running again, I feel so blob-ish right now and something needs to be done about it. Mark arrives in a few weeks too and nothing saps self-confidence faster than feeling like a blob. So, tomorrow it is. Gonna take it slow. I want to just get back into the habit of going in the morning no matter what the weather holds...I'm such a pansy these days. Once I get the routine straight, the speed and distance will follow.

Aside from that, it's just the same ol' work and life and trying to keep afloat.

Things feel quiet. I feel quiet. It's one of those moods where I have no desire to do anything except breathe...just lay down and breathe. But living with others doesn't allow for quiet time. I have to do something, anything. I could retreat to my room, but that requires too much. I dunno. I think it's a result of doing too much and being 'on' all the time. I just need to be off for a while.

I also think I may be getting sick. There's a tickle in the back of my throat... =(

Less than 3 weeks to go. I wish Mark were here already.

The days are really ticking by. I can't say that I mind.

Yesterday was spent at the track again, today was in the clinic. I love the challenge of it all, but it really exhausts me and makes me feel like a real retard sometimes. I love it though, I love that it's not easy, that it is a struggle, but most of all, I love that it is getting easier.

For a while I had been questioning whether or not I actually want this...I wasn't sure if I could do it...if I wanted to anymore. But I know I do. It's just that I forget easily and forgot that at the end of the day, alongside the exhaustion is also accomplishment. And though it's a struggle now, it is getting easier, that I can do it...and that I'm not actually as dumb as I look. I know I can do this job, and I know that I want to.

With the house hunting over, furniture hunting is the new obsession. I just have an idea of what to get done before Mark gets here and I have put a lot of pressure on myself to do it. I know I need to take a chill pill though; not my strong suit, but I need to learn.

Getting a little bit of work-work in...and trying not to panic. The few projects that were open have gone to others and I'm still at 8 hours a month. =( I guess I don't deserve work, and I have had a good run, but I'm anxious. I hate worrying about money. The December release was my last shot at getting a project...and now that just about all of that has been given out, it's definite that I won't have the opportunity to get any more work hours. I know he has to take care of those whose livelihoods and families depend on them first, but it just leaves me high and dry. Sigh.

We've got a place. =) I will pay the first weeks' rent and 2 weeks bond tomorrow or so...and I get the keys on the 23rd; maybe even earlier. I am so excited! I can't wait to move in. I can't wait for Mark to get here. Awesome.

I spent the week in Charlie's clinic trying my hand at being a real vet. The week was jam packed and I hit a number of milestones and have gotten so much more comfortable with taking a history, doing the p/e, giving iv injections, putting an animal under anesthesia, and doing a full work up when it's warranted. The most memorable case was a parvo pup that didn't really fit the parvo profile so we did a full work up several times over. It died, but it really hits home how important vaccinations are. The second was a Caesar we did on a Jersey cow. The calf couldn't get out and died trying so we had to cut it out. It was my first field surgery and my first time scrubbing in outside of school. It's a lot of work, but it's really interesting and I actually have fun putting what I've learned to work. It is exhausting though, not just physically and mentally, but emotionally too. Friday we euth'd a lab with laryngeal paralysis and the owner was present, crying and talking to him as we were doing it. It was really really hard to choke back tears...it's the first time I cried at a euth. Even though it was necessary, it doesn't make the grief any less...the head knows what's happening, but the heart still hurts.

Nothing else really fit into my extra long days so everything else has been pretty quiet. In any spare time I'm still house hunting. Things are just really slow because it's hard to view places when you're out the whole day. Still, Mark and I seem to be chipping away at the stuff that needs to be done. I feel like he's mining from one end and I'm on the opposite side...somehow if we keep plugging away, we'll meet in the middle.

I called a couple of places today, I've decided that 180 is a pretty firm cap...there's 2 exceptions right now but none after that. One I'm seeing on Monday, it's a 2+ br place in a good location, and the other is one that looks refurbished from the gajillion pictures they posted. It's quite updated compared to the other places around, but it's far. Coincidentally, I called and talked to the lady in charge of 268 Park; I thought it was already gone, but I gess not...she's getting the keys on Monday and the place is ready next week  I want to push it out one week if poss, but for the price, I'd move in early...I'm kinda sick of being in a house with others already. Not that there's anything wrong...but it's just annoying to have to share space...and there's always a bit of accountability if you come home late or whatever. I feel like I have to explain where I am, or what I'm doing to my friends...who, I know, could give a shit, but the feeling is there nonetheless.

Even though we don't officially have a place yet, I've already started furnishing it...it's kinda fun to get all this stuff, but it is pricey and it adds up. I have a decent amount of stuff already, but needed (and got) and dish set, some pots and pans, and cooking utensils today. I splurged and got an electric blanket too. It's been so damn bloody cold and I hate crawling into bed absolutely freezing and unable to stretch out because I'm too cold. I end up in the fetal position shivering until the bed warms up enough for me to slowly unfurl. Sad really.

I'm staying at Elly's by myself right now and there's been an awful lot of screaming outside...I've stayed here alone before, but for whatever reason, it's just kinda freaky right now. So noisy; one of many reasons I really don't want to live in this area. It's just kinda scary...I'm afraid to go out to my car to go home. =/

Tomorrow I really ought to do some work, may look at a few places...but
just want to get some study in...it's also the August release. Next week is gonna be spent in the clinic again; not long after, we're back in the thick of things...

Things are alright. I want to say "busy" even though I feel like I haven't done squat in the past few days. Maybe I just feel like I'm under pressure but lack the motivation. I did some study today which is good...of course, need to do more. Start of calving tomorrow.

Just feeling a little tired...I dunno.

Dan is in the hospital...kinda scared for him...but other than that, all is well.