Ugh. Had medicine yesterday - went alright. Had surgery today...not so alright. I've felt better about tests, but at the very least I tried. Nothing was so off the wall that I didn't score any points, but a point or two here and there tends to add up. It's sad that I'm worried that I didn't get at least 50%. So much for those good ol' days when I was acutally smart. Things were different back then...maybe I had more to prove. Now, I just want to get by.

Brain is still puttering along...another test tomorrow...should probably prepare.

It's finals time and I'm trying to focus and study...doing a mediocre job of it so far. Finally hunkered down and got some work-work done as well...not sure if it's enough to justify what I've been charging, but it's progress...

Aside from that, life with Mark is good...it's hard to be as hard on myself as usual when he's here being so nice...

It's almost 10 and I'm tired and hungry...not sure if I will stay up much longer than this. Shouldn't. Tomorrow has to be a good study day. I'm running out of time. Only 3 more days to study before the onslaught of tests...I know that studying will help...but in a way, I also think that cramming at the last minute just won't be good enough and won't produce anything except panic. I just hope I know enough.

On the bright side, the exchange rate has been in our favor for once and I got a large chunk of tuition brought over. Nice.

The neck spasms stopped after 3 full days of pain.

Skipped class today for work related stuff, but am gonna stay home the rest of the day because I can. Because I want to.

It's a new day and I'm trying.

I keep looking around to understand why it feels like everything is falling down around me. Is it because my planets are out of alignment? Is it one of God's lessons? Fate? Sucky thing is, there's never an answer and there never will be one.

It was just a crappy week.

Lost 5,000+ in the crashing market, got my scooter stolen, had issues at work, bought a dryer that was faulty, and my Castle Crashers account was wiped out.

None of these problems could be classed as "the end of the world" type situation, but any one of them really sucks, and all of them in sequence is just a bit too much for a person already on edge about the point of life altogether. It's just frustrating. I am frustrated.

It's just money...

Feels like there's less time these days...or maybe I'm better at filling up the time that used to be spent truly idle. Life with Mark's been good; it feels like this is the way things should be...I still like him.

School is a pain. Finals start at the end of the month and I'm not ready. I don't know what's going to happen, but I pray I pass...next to the last set of finals. I can dooooo eeeettt.

Aside from that, we're now on a low-carb kick and my goodness I just feel hungry all the time. Nothing unmanageable, but in terms of food planning a little more complicated if you don't want to eat the same 2 things every day.

Not sure if I am gonna get any more work done tonight. I've kind of had it for the day...this is gonna be a busy few weeks.