I'm getting laid off.

I found out yesterday when George "had to talk to me".

My gut reaction was actually one of joy. I have been toying with the idea for so long, but never had the guts to do it because the pay was so good. Well, that decision has been taken out of my hands and I'm grateful.

It's strange...there's something happening; I can feel it. It's an energy that's charged with change and it's sort of guiding our lives right now. I feel like it's a new beginning...like the start of something great. It's exciting. It's nice...it's hope?

Mark is still out of work, but has decided to do an internet detox. I think it'll be really really good for him...it will be interesting to see how he fares and what will burble up to fill the void. I'm hoping it'll be just what he needs to sort through everything in his head. Anything can happen.

So now that we'll both be out of work, the money situation is just that much worse off...and I have to get a loan. I'm still not very happy about it. I guess it still feels like the burden of finding enough money to live and pay for school...and eventually repay that loan...is my sole responsibility. Even though I know it's not, it still feels that way.

I'm tired.

The first "real" rotation started this week; surgery.

It's been a bit of a rollercoaster. There's so much to take on at once, and there's really no easing into it. I suppose I got it easy though; it's been a relatively slow week compared to what other students get. Despite how slow it is, I still got to do my very own cat spay. A real client! It was very nerve wracking at first, but when I got going, it got easier. I felt so clumsy and my hands were shaking most of the time, but I know it'll go away in time.

For the first time in a while, I actually had fun and liked what I was doing. It was nice.

My body is complaining pretty hard though. My pulled hamstring has been giving me trouble all week; I am going to try to take it a bit easier today and rest it more. Standing and walking around all day is very tiring...it's just very different from the usual sedentary student lifestyle.

I have next week off and am pretty happy about that.

Just two more days to get through.