March 5, 2008
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Geez, Wednesday night already? Time is going by a little faster. It's good.
Tuesday was uneventful. Talked to Beth...told her about A&S...she thinks that there's "someone else". I think so too...her actions and the way she headed north so quickly suggests that something has compelled her enough to change plans at the last minute. I guess there are just so many little things that ring familiar when I was in her shoes. It just fits. But it's wrong. I was wrong...
Today, went to physio and am finally coming to grips that I don't have to live with chronic pain. Go figure. There are a million and one reasons why I never sought help, but the fact that I won't stand for it anymore means a lot has actually changed. I've changed.
I got an email from Mike out of the blue...our last conversation was pretty shitty and I am amazed at how things have played out. I was supposed to be in Palmdale for NYE. Mike and I were supposed to hang out and booze up...but there was just something about the whole situation that didn't sit right. The conversation we had felt strained and there was just something about the way he was treating me (over the phone, mind you) that really pissed me off. What's even more incredible is that I rang him the next day and called him out on it...that conversation was even worse and one of his comments was, "what happened to you? This just doesn't sound like you. It's not the Pauline I know." Hrmph. That irritated me even more and so I canceled our NYE plans...and went over to the Boys' with my sister instead...and the rest is history.
I totally forgot about that whole thing with Mike until his email jogged a memory loose. It's just really trippy how trusting my feelings and not letting him treat me in a way I didn't appreciate (both are things I've never really practiced) has lead to...well...everything I have now.
It's all just incredible...and I can't help but smile and be appreciative...and be in awe of where life can take you...and be excited about the prospects of what may lie ahead. =)
I'm feeling...good. =)
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