My brain hurts. Test went better than I expected. Birthday tomorrow. Cows on Friday.

I love my friends. I know I've found the right people when we can get out of a test and make fun of our own stupidity. I know lots of other folks who came out with their heads hung low and just distressed - I can't deal with that crap. We walked out grinning from ear to ear. It was funny recounting the bull shit that we put in hopes of it being the right answer...or the utter brain farts we have. All you can do is laugh, really. At the very least it's over - it's a midterm and now I know the stuff I need to get to in order to be ready for the final. Oddly, the surgery stuff was really easy compared to some of the medicine stuff. I guess we'll see how it goes. I think I passed, and if I don't eh. I may have to sit supps, but I'll cross that bridge when I get there. The funniest thing to come out of the last two days was centered around what the lecturer said on the causes/signs/treatment for uveitis and the comedy that can only come from a simple homophone. In my notes I have "no uveitis" in Ab's notes she had "know uveitis". We spent about 5 minutes trying to figure out if it was "know" or "no" - haha...sigh. Turns out she was right, but luckily I glanced over enough to be able to jot down a few things.

No test tomorrow, but Equine on Wednesday. I need to study, but my level of concentration is zilch right now. I put on The Prince of Egypt again (for the 50th time) and am just gonna take it easy for a little while before tucking back into it.

super duper blahs. i just want these exams over with already, it's agony always feeling like i should be studying and always feeling guilty when i'm not, or if i don't study as much or as hard as other people. it's just bs. i hate having things drag out like this.

Bleh.  Got a case of em' right now. Probably just need to get outta the house and away from it all.

I like it because it's hard.

No, not that - perv.

I've been studying and just looked at some sample endocrinology cases and damn, they're hard. Not impossible, just gets the noggin' churning and though it probably doesn't bode well for my test scores, it makes me like this profession even more.  I like it because it can leave me stumped...it makes me want to strive for more...

I've heard several times that medicine is as much an art as it is a science, and the more I learn, the more I see that there are so many ways to go about getting to the same place. That leaves a lot of room for practicing your own style. Even if it's as simple as a treatment regime, those who are more bold, will probably go guns blaring and try the latest and greatest, or even make something up - go on a hunch, and those who are cautious may sit back and wait...it's self expression in science. It's art. That concept extends to every aspect from the way you deal with the client to how you go about finding the right diagnosis. It's just trippy...and so exciting.

That said, one would think that I would have renewed vigor to study, but at the end of the day, a body can only take so much. What it does though, is remind me that I love what I'm doing, and makes me excited to pick up the books and do all again tomorrow. =)

Kinda tired of studying. Brain is starting to protest the constant work.

Had a good day. Have more work to get done and have tons to study, but as a friend said, 50% is a pass, 51% is wasted effort. =)

Study, money, study...not many other things on the mind. Decided I won't be moving out until the end of the year. If I have to take out loans, I will...

I have to have faith that things will work out. It's definitely an uncomfortable position for me - another learning experience in patience.

Miss Mark.

Just 3 weeks.